Live your Life Like the Last

    There are many rules everyone should live by, “Treat everyone the way you would like to be treated”, “live your life to the fullest”, and “live the day like your last”. Whenever I do something I want to be completely satisfied, I don’t want to wish I had done it, I want to be able to say “Wow, I can’t believe I did that.” I want to do things I am scared to do not for the rush but for the satisfaction of it.

    Also I think it is very important to treat people all equally and to think about if you would like to be treated like that. There's not one person I know that like feeling sad and put down, so why do that to people? Well sometimes we unconsciously do it or do it to look better or fit in. To be honest I have done that to people, I have belittled people or made them feel bad about themselves. But realizing  how I feel when people do that to me, I always end up feeling bad because I am not truly being my self. I try to be myself as much as I can, but you want the people you like to like you even more so sometimes you change because you think they will like you more. Fortunately I have learned that most of the time that not being yourself doesn’t work if they are your friends, they are your friends for a reason and you had to have been your self in order to get them to like you. Because you cannot be completely fake the whole time you have known that person.

    When living your life you want to be true to yourself and to others. You also should be satisfied with your life. So if you are not satisfied, you need to find why you are not and then change whatever it is to become satisfied again.  I think in order to be satisfied you must do things you do not normally do and you need to try harder than normal. Some people are completely satisfied doing nothing and having a normal life. But for me in order to be truly happy and satisfied you must challenge yourself and feel happy that you did something you normally wouldn’t do.

Stick with It

Creds to Goveggie

New lifestyles are frequent for me, whether it’s trying to become a better student, becoming a vegetarian, or changing yourself completely. Well, I decided to change and do something very hard for me. Become a vegetarian, I come from a big family of meat eaters, for example we would have meat with every meal and make sure it was a lot of it.  Well fortunately for me, my mother and sister became a vegetarian because they realized that they could not digest as well as some other people can and it gave them stomach aches. Well, I decided to join them and become one too. It took a couple tries and fails, but the third time I did successfully become a vegetarian for a full year and I still am one.

Everyone thinks that it isn’t hard becoming a vegetarian, well the first three months were very hard! Your body doesn’t understand what is happening and why their is a sudden lack of protein to it’s died. But your mind understands and after the first three months I was okay and my body stopped craving meat and it actually didn’t even look appealing anymore. But prices come when becoming a vegetarian besides that you lose weight because of all of the fat that don’t put in your body, you lose your energy unless you take your vitamins.

I became a vegetarian for one reason, I love animals and I don’t want to influence people to kill them. When people are non-vegetarians I believe they are supporting the killing of animals and I believe that is not right and that animals should not be raised to be killed. Being a vegetarian is important to me and I hope I can stick with it for as long as I can.   

Thinking Ahead

In my family we prepare to make our future better and same with the present. I am constantly thinking about my future, what I want to do, and where I want to go. But I don’t know so I try to be able to have options so I will be ok when it is time to decide what I want to do. As a sophomore I am taking two English classes and have a job. The job I have will prepare me later in life because it will be easier for me to get a job while I am in college and it helps me with people skills and being patient with people.  This job I have now will help me prepare for college by saving money and gaining experience.  The English classes I am taking will help me prepare for the impromptu essay on the SAT, but mostly because it shows that English is important to me and that I like to use my free periods wisely.

My family also helps in many ways, they try to show me how to be prepared when I am living alone I will not go hungry and so I can become independant. My mother also taught me to cook and do laundry which will help when it comes to me living alone or with my friends. My father thinks about the best for the family and to works as much as he can and still spend time with me and my family.  

I know that in the outcome I will be happy with all of these choices I am making because they will  help me in the long run and will hopefully make my life easier as time goes on.  At my job, Insalatas, you are required for me to be completely independent, and rely on the skills you have, and if you do not have the skills you need to earn them. Whenever i describe my job to people it always sounds easy, but that is because I have not described the hours I am their, or some of the things I have to deal with.   What I do is hard but it will be beneficial in the outcome.

Small yet Serious

When I was in fourth grade something happened to me that made me very sad for a long period of time. My parents got a divorce, it was the most traumatic thing that had happened to me. I was nine years old when it happened and they both sat my brother,sister,and I down. Normally when they sit us all down they tell us someone we barely knew died or that we were going to go on a vacation, so I thought nothing of it.  But they told us that they don’t love each other anymore and that they were getting a divorce. That is when it felt like I was in a movie where I see the suitcase next to the front door and they keep talking but it was like i couldn’t hear my parents anymore I had just been so confused. Why didn’t i see the signs? It had to of been me wasn’t it? Well, this is what every child thinks when their parents tell them they were getting a divorce.

My mother was crying at this time when we were in the living room. She told us that we could say the dirtiest word we have ever heard and I was speechless but my brother was yelling his brains off, and my sister only said a couple words because she was also in shock.  My father though, he was very sad, this was probably the saddest I had ever seen him. He wasn’t crying but he was close, but everyone in the room was filled with sadness. Even my dog Maggie, she was in a good spot sitting in the middle of the room making sure everyone was okay.

I remember that was the worst feeling ever, thinking that it was your fault and wondering what you could've done to stop it. Now, I still am curious about what would’ve happened if they stayed together. But I am glad that happened because if they didn’t get a divorce they wouldn’t be happy and I would never of met my mothers boyfriend, or my step-mother or step-brother.

The Strength of Sensitivity

I have many weaknesses one of my main weaknesses is how sensitive I am. It mostly happens when my emotion changes quickly or if I am scared for something I don't want to happen and I can imagine it well enough.  Everyone says that it is good if you are sensitive but when you are sensitive you don’t feel good, you feel weak. And feeling weak isn’t fun because then you feel less than everyone and you cry.

But being sensitive has its upsides, when you are sensitive you have better understanding of how other people feel, which will always help you when you are in a situation and when people need help.  This situation I am referring to could be physically helping someone or emotionally when they are depressed or lost.

When people tell me I am sensitive I automatically become offended by it, but why? I have been starting to think about why I take offense to that they are just saying that I have a lot of emotions and can understand some people easier. That is what being sensitive really is. But people have started using sensitive in a different way, needy or “overly emotional” which I disagree with 100%. I find that being sensitive is a good thing rather than neediness which is not. But overall sensitiveness is my strength and my weakness which I am proud of.  

I think being sensitive is a gift, it shows you how other people feel when certain things happen to them. Sensitivity can affect your life whether you want it to or not. You cannot chose to be sensitive you are born with it. It is considered a gift to most but a burden to others. People that are sensitive chose to live with it and take it to their advantage. Sensitivity can help you with your people skills or just staying true to yourself.

Sensitivity has affected me alot in my life, whenever I get in a arguement with someone I love. Whenever this happens I become strong because I know what I want and what is right in this matter. But I always end up crying. One of my main points of sensitivity comes from academics. My whole life I have been self conscious about my grades, even when I try to change my grades do not improve. It is hard to fit in, with grades, or just people. I’ve had academic help my whole life, until I got in high school. I regret the choice for not asking for more help. I finally realized people are more than willing to help if you just ask. 

Time to Try

Time to Try

I have been called many things, including some words  I don’t even say but when people say them I don’t think they know that they make an impression on us. But they do, I am not the only person who gets called things I can name many people who get judged or called names and come off like they don’t care or that it doesn’t phase them, I am one of those people. I have even been called hurtful things by my family and they don’t know how much it has hurt me. For instance more than once I have been called the  intelligent one of the family when it is hard to compete with having a brother with a 3.9 GPA. My family doesn’t know that small things like that really hurt my feelings.

My whole life my teachers have said to me, “Get your head out of the clouds!”  But the teachers don’t even know why it is up their.  Maybe because the class is boring, but  everything adding up and piling on top of each other just make me want to escape because everything brings me  back to our world which can be depressing and boring.
But lately my family has seen me struggling and how it effects me, I am finally going to get help help again. Since Kindergarden I have had special help, multiple tutors and teachers that dedicate their time to help me.

Home is where your Heart is

Although I was born in San Francisco I have grown up in the same house for 16 years, a medium size house on the bay. It is because I grew up in that house is why it feels like home to me.

Home can be anywhere for anyone. But what matters is the people you are with, if you are not with the people you love and don not feel happy or safe, then it’s time to go home. Find the people that make you happy and safe, whether it be family, or a best friend.

I have a big family, one sister 20 years old a crazy, beautiful, and athletic girl, a 17 year old brother also athletic and 6ft 7 and one of the funniest guys I know. My parents they are divorced but both loving people who want the best for me. And last but definitely not least  my little doggie, the one that has been with me through everything and has the best personality, my little Maggie.

I am happiest when at home, home is one of the only places I can be myself. At home I have done many things, many firsts, like my first steps or first words. But my home makes me want to stay there it is inviting and I just feel relieved when I walk up the front steps up to the front door because I know they drama of life will leave once I step through my front doors. My home is a place for relaxation and serenity.

My home is not like others, yes it has the basic layout and most of the same things as everyone elses. But my home is very special to me, even if I did not live there I would want to spend time their. My house starts with a big open living room filled with bright colors and lots of light, the living room leads to a very italian style kitchen.

But it doesn’t matter where you are as long as you are happy and with the ones you love mos t.